Beggar

Why is love so difficult to find?
Why can't someone be kind?
Why attack from behind?
What is a dark mind?
Why cause pain?
For futile gains,
Unison is main,
Division is vain,

Being always sad,
Forgot happiness I've had,
Illusions that i have created,
Maintains my mind demented,

How can I give that which I do not have?
Yet I crave for it with all my heart,
Why give alms to a stranger?
When I know I am the beggar.